I'm going to explain how drugs have changed my life, forever.
I was a teenager when I took my first pill. I took it because all my friends took them every weekend, and they seemed to be very happy.
I was the last in our group who tasted drugs, and nowadays, I don't understand why, because
I've always scared of drugs.
I used to feel different in the group, because at 5 in the morning I was absolutely tired, and all my friends were really happy, and full of energy. I felt like I was a pain in the neck by them.
My boyfriend, took drugs too, we were in the same group. He loved the night, and he liked taking drugs a lot, for this reason we argued a lot, so we decided to split up.
I remember that I felt very sad, and I cried every day, because I loved him a lot.
It was a bad period because during the week, I had a lot of things to do, the problems began at weekends, because me and all the group, went to parties, including my ex-boyfriend.
I looked at him, and he seemed to be the happiest man in the world, with his drugs, and I felt the saddest woman in the world, so I decided to taste the drug.
I thought that all my sadness was going to disappear with those magic pills.
The first time I tasted them I felt good, because it was the first time that I felt I was integrated in the group, so I was full of energy, and happy. However, It was not a real world . Friends are not real friends, and happiness was not real either.
After that day I was able to taste some different kind of drugs, like cocaine, spit and lsd as well.
I used to take them every weekend, since something bad happened to me.
It was on the 24th of June, we were in a private party full of drugged people.
I used to buy one pill, but that day I bought two and it was a big mistake. Two hours after we had arrived to the party I was totally unconscious, and nobody realized.
When they realized I was unconscious party, they decided to get me into the car, and continued with the party. When it finally ended, my boyfriend made the decision to take me home.
I was very ill, and nobody was at home, my parents were abroad, so I was two days at home, totally unconscious.
When my parents got home, they realized that I was really ill, so they decided to take me to the hospital; I was in coma some days. I was fighting to survive, and I achieved it.
Those days were really hard. My parents couldn't believe all that had happened.
But they gave me all their support, and we overcame that problem. I have to thank them for their help, it was really important for me.
Although we though the problem had finished, it had just begun, some days after, I began to feell bad, I was going to the hospital every day during a week, I had panic attacks. I was not ill, but I felt really ill, so we began to visit all kind of doctors, in order to find what my illness was.
After many test, I had anxiety. From that day up to now, I continue with anxiety. These drugs changed my life for ever. Before that I was really happy, with a lot of dreams to achieve. I loved travelling a lot, and meeting people.
Nowadays, I can't make anything. I have a lot of phobias; I'm not able to travel out of the country. I lost my happiness, I’ve never feel healthy, everyday I have a different pain, and sometimes I feel depressed, because I don’t like how I am.
I only hope to make up for lost time, and become the happy girl I was before.
It's hard for me to explain this, but perhaps it could help someone, and this will be enough to me.
Please take in mind that drugs can destroy your life.
I was a teenager when I took my first pill. I took it because all my friends took them every weekend, and they seemed to be very happy.
I was the last in our group who tasted drugs, and nowadays, I don't understand why, because
I've always scared of drugs.
I used to feel different in the group, because at 5 in the morning I was absolutely tired, and all my friends were really happy, and full of energy. I felt like I was a pain in the neck by them.
My boyfriend, took drugs too, we were in the same group. He loved the night, and he liked taking drugs a lot, for this reason we argued a lot, so we decided to split up.
I remember that I felt very sad, and I cried every day, because I loved him a lot.
It was a bad period because during the week, I had a lot of things to do, the problems began at weekends, because me and all the group, went to parties, including my ex-boyfriend.
I looked at him, and he seemed to be the happiest man in the world, with his drugs, and I felt the saddest woman in the world, so I decided to taste the drug.
I thought that all my sadness was going to disappear with those magic pills.
The first time I tasted them I felt good, because it was the first time that I felt I was integrated in the group, so I was full of energy, and happy. However, It was not a real world . Friends are not real friends, and happiness was not real either.
After that day I was able to taste some different kind of drugs, like cocaine, spit and lsd as well.
I used to take them every weekend, since something bad happened to me.
It was on the 24th of June, we were in a private party full of drugged people.
I used to buy one pill, but that day I bought two and it was a big mistake. Two hours after we had arrived to the party I was totally unconscious, and nobody realized.
When they realized I was unconscious party, they decided to get me into the car, and continued with the party. When it finally ended, my boyfriend made the decision to take me home.
I was very ill, and nobody was at home, my parents were abroad, so I was two days at home, totally unconscious.
When my parents got home, they realized that I was really ill, so they decided to take me to the hospital; I was in coma some days. I was fighting to survive, and I achieved it.
Those days were really hard. My parents couldn't believe all that had happened.
But they gave me all their support, and we overcame that problem. I have to thank them for their help, it was really important for me.
Although we though the problem had finished, it had just begun, some days after, I began to feell bad, I was going to the hospital every day during a week, I had panic attacks. I was not ill, but I felt really ill, so we began to visit all kind of doctors, in order to find what my illness was.
After many test, I had anxiety. From that day up to now, I continue with anxiety. These drugs changed my life for ever. Before that I was really happy, with a lot of dreams to achieve. I loved travelling a lot, and meeting people.
Nowadays, I can't make anything. I have a lot of phobias; I'm not able to travel out of the country. I lost my happiness, I’ve never feel healthy, everyday I have a different pain, and sometimes I feel depressed, because I don’t like how I am.
I only hope to make up for lost time, and become the happy girl I was before.
It's hard for me to explain this, but perhaps it could help someone, and this will be enough to me.
Please take in mind that drugs can destroy your life.
7 comentarios:
Hi my friend!
hard story and not nice.
Have you seen Requiem for a dream??? by Darren Aronofsky.
That film is so hard about the horrors of drug addiction. But I recomended the film, in spite of "Requiem for a Dream" is not a movie for everyone.
http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=h-IC4pm6fvY
That's a terrible story, yes. But I think everybody can have a bad past, and everybody can walk through it in the present. So, I don't know if that really happended to you or to the character you've created for your blog but, anyway, I'd encourage you to go ahead and try to live what you seem to have missed before.
Moreover, I thank you for writing about this because, as you said, Ithink it can be really helpful.
A hug to you, my brave friend!
Hi!
What a terrible history!
I hope you won't take drugs anymore.
And I hope this story teach us a little bit more about those things that is better to never do in our lifes.
Thanks for your story and be strong my friend!
I thought I had written on this post! Sorry. Here I am, back with some comments.
Brave of you to tell us your story. Thanks for sharing. It seems to me that you are on the right track, admitting the problem is the first and most important step. I'm sure you are going to feel much better soon.
Have a look at your language comments:
-when I TOOK my first pill
-I've ALWAYS (WO) been scared OF drugs.
-I used to feel (0) different in the group,
-I remember(0) that I felt very sad
-I looked AT him,
-THE first time I ...
-I was FULL of energy
-Two hours after we HAD arrived to the party
-My parentS couldn't believe all THAT HAD happened.
-and we overcAme that problem.
- it haD just begun, some days after, I began to feEl bad, I was going to THE hospital every day during a week,
-After MANY/A LOT OF testS, I had anxiety. From that day up to now, I continue with anxiety. These drugs changed my life for ever. Before that I was really happy, with a lot of dreams to ACHIEVE.
-and become (0) the happy girl I was before.
-It's hard FOR me to explain this,
Hi brisa!!
Well this is a hard story, but you seem to be stronger than your story!! so you'll overcome it soon!!
My boyfriend took a lot of drug, and for that we argued a lot, until I said he had to chose... Afortunatly he choose me, both overcame it, but It was very hard...
So, try to keep good company!!!
and cheer up!!
:-D
Thanks for yor good wishes!
I honestly want to be back very soon!
Enjoy the holidays and do not forget to write a little bit!
Do take care
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